Omigod, I Think I May Be Getting Stupider
For most of my adult and near adult life, I’ve thought of myself as a reasonably bright person. When I was in fifth grade I was put in an accelerated program because I had maxed out some IQ test. I skipped my senior year of high school (not that hard to do) and went to college when I was 16. I graduated four years later (from a different school) with honors. Whatever insecurities I’ve had over the years, feeling stupid wasn’t one of them. Until recently.
I pat myself on the back in this way and at this time, because I find myself at what is supposed to be the height of my intellectual, social, and economic prime feeling increasingly confused and out of sorts about the events that swirl around me, both in my day to day dealings, and in the world at large. It reassures me to think that at one point I felt like I knew everything (ah, youth!).
These days, I read the local paper, I habituate the online homes of CNN, The New York Times, Google News,
and a host of others, and I watch CNN, MSNBC, and CNBC with reasonable regularity. I deal daily with a pretty smart grade of person. I can discuss current events without making a fool of myself. And still, I find to my increasing consternation, that I’m having a harder and harder time making sense of things.
I wonder about this creeping sense of overwhelm. I suppose I could pass it off as my age, but that leaves me a bit out of breath. If I at 47 struggle to understand what’s going on in Iraq, just to pick one example, what does that say about the folks making all the big decisions in their undisclosed locations who are much older than I? No, that one seems way too simple, ageist, and unbecoming.
Another possible explanation is that the world has just gotten a lot more complex. Nobody can understand all of it, or even a lot of it. I like that idea because it accounts for everything without meaning anything. I can assert it with great confidence because I know I’m not wrong about this. At any time in the last thousand years or so, any two people could be sitting around